"I saw the best minds of my generation..."

I saw the best minds of my generation unable to get lost, measuring, adjusting, calculating, double  checking, always within an hour

Of an air mattress and a shower,

Always a message away from directions and a click away from the answers they

Always assume to be right, always found

Except when jeans are tight, when the music is loud, except when drinks are strong and lips are parted,

Except when the Teenage Dream with a real clumsy shave has dirt under his nails,

Dark blue in a crowded room,

Alone except for the buzz and beep and you always blink red even when the lights flash

Making your bones vibrate join the mob mentality

Always found because it burns and aches like breathing hard to think they cannot reach you for an instant as it would

Always be the second true love was confessed and flesh became more than flesh because in the back of your mind you

Always brushed your teeth and slept on fancy sheets so that in that internet intimacy you could be more than skin but that is all of what you are

Except if you are lucky someone will realize that you can bleed more than binary codes, Dynamite might be enough to ignite what your parents pretend you never because 

you don’t have letters on your skin or a trellis under your bedroom window and you always wear your watch, always because you have to –

You forgot where the sun rises and the moonsets so point of reference is a mess of screens, and too many letter screams

that way you seem on top of it when you give your firm handshake and direct eye contact, direct eye contact

Always when you expect them to choose you, then, always a cable knit sweater, maybe cotton, probably cashmere but never just 98% because then who would want to touch you?